Why the Filling is the Most Delicious Part

It began at the morning meeting. We all sat down with our cups of coffee, and there in the center of the table is the pink box! You know the one I am talking about. It is the Pandora's box for every dieter. That is right! It is the box filled with the jellies, the glazed, the powdered, the smothered in chocolate, and where am I? Every sense going off in my head...even the napkins smell like those pudgy little pastries, and I am sitting there trying to practice the ancient art of self-control. In fact this is taking all of my best dieting ninja skills. Every inch of me is calling on years of my diet training. I see my bosses lips moving....something about company policy, and all I can think of is don't look at the box, don't look at the box. Then that voice inside me that says surely one little bite, one little piece won't hurt. Immediately flash backs to the garden of Eden race through my mind. Well, just because Eve couldn't resist that first piece of food doesn't mean I am going to make the same mistake.

I sip my coffee and refocus. I can't help but think, man what is wrong with me. I am usually really good about avoiding sugar and sweets, and then it hits me this is stage 1 of my sugar addiction. That is right. I let loose at the wedding. Ate everything that was available, which was all covered in the prettiest most amazing icings ever, and in one fun and blissful weekend my body has convinced itself that it needs and MUST HAVE SUGAR!

When I really set my mind to losing weight I started doing research. I read everything I could, and I started experimenting with my own body. Sugar is a chemical. I am not talking about natural sugars, such as what God put in your food. I talking about that ooey gooey filling that makes up this jelly donut. It is white; it is manufactured; it is in every product you buy, and trust me if it was good for you, you wouldn't miss it so much when it isn't a main part of your diet.

My first course of action, I had to change the ingredients in my filling. Everyone hates this step. Including me. I am the most horrible woman to be around. I love my sugar. My body tells me I need it. In fact when I eat it, I don't feel nearly as lonely. My brain even signals to my heart the same feeling when someone hugs me. When I am hurt and just want to cry, I stuff my face with it and it listens to all my hurts and frustrations. Just reading this you see the problem. Well this is just the emotional addiction.

Let me take a moment to talk about the physical effects sugar has on me. Sugar causes me to retain water. I have a severe mold allergy that sugar reacts with and makes worse. It throws off the natural balance in my body. In fact when I eat too much of it, I itch from the inside out. My skin feels like it is crawling. I crave it. I crave sweet and salty. When I eat sugar and simple carbohydrates, my body immediately begins dumping insulin. It does it quickly, and I feel the drop immediately. The only way I can combat that is to eat something fatty, which is why I can not eat pancakes in the morning. I need to have a days worth of protein to be able to stabilize my body when I eat those foods.

You may be wondering how I figured this out. I removed sugar from my diet. This is always my first step, and I am sooo grumpy and hungry when I do. So instead of eating sugar I eat protein. Nuts, cheese, meat. I don't worry about the fat or the quantity. Watching cholesterol, fat, and portions comes later. Right now my mission is to get past the cravings. After the cravings subsided which takes me about 2 to 3 days I feel better. I'm thinking straight again. My focus goes back to where it should.

The truth is that my filling is what counts the most. If you are a Christian, then you probably saw immediately where I made the wrong turn. I filled myself with sugar and created an ooey gooey mess instead of filling myself with the Holy Spirit. I lost perspective. Too often we forget, and we push God to this level where there isn't an intimate relationship. Maybe it is our sinful nature we are allowing to seperate us from a God who wants to be at eye level and not somewhere floating above. Whatever the reason, when we fill our hearts with things God has to say instead of the garbage society tells us we are transformed.

So often we equate what others say about us or what even say to ourselves, with our interpretation of what God thinks. The truth is we are not farther from the truth. "Before (We) were formed (He) knew us. Before (We) were born (He) set us apart" Jer 1:5. Remember you are "Fearfully and wonderfully made" Ps 139:14. He knew and loved us before we ate the entire box of donuts or the half gallon of ice cream ( no, I am not kidding. I was bad!)

Let's not forget who we are. "We are heirs--heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ" (Rom 8:17) to the most powerful kingdom known to us. We are not just princes and princesses. We are kings and queens. When we filled our hearts and opened that door to Christ we became "like a lily among thorns...among the maidens" (Song of Songs 2:2). Don't fool yourself in to thinking you are just a normal girl. You are so much more! No matter what shape! In fact you are so much more loved than every normal girl out there, and it is because the main ingredient in your filling is the Holy Spirit!

So today ladies, Today the Donut, Tomorrow the World! You Rock!